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[15 Oct 2007|07:51am] |
WELL FUCK.
When I havent been updating in FOREVER, you must realize that this is a good thing for me. That means Ive been HAPPY. Right? I usually only journal or whatever when Im shitty or unhappy. Well things have been going great the past couple of months.
Moving was most possibly the best thing to have ever happened to me.
I have a great bunch of friends.
Ive been dating this guy named Jordan. (If you look back a post or few, that guy Matt... Well Jordan is Matts best friend.)
School SUCKS ASS, but Im doing well. I have mainly all 90%+. For the most part anyways. I want to have all of my grades ATLEAST at 97%, but I dont think thats going to happen, lol. I try though.
But the past week has been shit. But I odnt know how to talk about it, because you guys will be clueless anyways. I doubt any of you guys will read this, hahha.
But all in all, Im doing well.
And I have like one minute until Im supposed to leave, I just thought Id update.
love you guys.
tarynn.
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[31 Jul 2007|12:26pm] |
I like editing pictures, and I love Africa.
I dont know what the date is, but I think its Tuesday.
Im bored.
I dont have anything to talk about.
I put a cat on my socks head, and the result was her jumping around and thrashing her head around. She looks like hard core dancer at a rockshow. ahhah. It was cute.
Do you have any pets? What are their personalities like?
edit: I put a SOCK on my CATS head. lol
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| i am human and i need to.. |
[30 Jul 2007|04:34pm] |
well. Ive been in Greenfield for like a week now. My bff comes this Sunday, August 5th.
Ive met two people thus far. Dan and Aaron. Dan lived three doors down from me, and he is pretty much always in his garage playing guitar. Aaron lives on some other street near me, in the apartments, and he jams on the bass with Dan. Dan, 17, going to be a junior. Aaron, 18, going to be a senior.
Theyre scaring the shit out of me talking about how everyone here are asses. eek. Theyre not exactly what I would call the people that really "fit in" either, like long hair, metal t's. You know what I mean? Theyre nice guys, but I can tell that even teachers would automatically sterotype them to be losers and shit that dont care about school and automatically give them a hard time. You know what I mean? Ive said that twice in this paragraph, lol.
I hope people like me, and that I can make friends. hahha. Ive never been new before, and there are just as many kids in my highschool that LIVE IN MY town, that Im from. hahha. I went to highschool with 100 other people, now Im going with like 1300 people. Itll be different for me, for sure.
What is your favorite 80s musician?
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[07 Jul 2007|09:03pm] |
My favorite hair color on me is my current color. Darkkk brown. As much as I love blonde hair, I jusy look better brunette.
Ive moved. Across the country. I spent the first two days here crying.. But Im okay now. Itll take time to adjust.
Taylor said that he would call me everyday. And he has thus far, well he hasnt today. I really hope that he does. I like him a lot.. and I just wish I didnt get to know him.. or atleast I wish I had got to know him sooner than I did. He said he would come to Indiana to see me, but... doubt it. Lots of people have said that, and I dont think any of them will.
So I was furniture shopping with my mom, and shit. When we were leaving this one furniture place, the salesman said "Im corey by the way." and shook my hand, and he slipped me his phone number. Hahha. I was like, "Oh!" Anyways, I doubt Ill hang out with him. He wasnt very attractive, and is a but older than I am.
And I went car shopping with my dad today. Im getting a VW Beetle. I never liked them, but today.. I fell in love. I HAVE TO HAVE ONE. They are so fucking cute.
Have you ever moved? When you graduate highschool/college are you going to move out of your town?
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[02 Jul 2007|07:01pm] |
My favorite books are the series about Jessica Darling. (Sloppy Firsts, Second Helpings, and Charmed Thirds. Fourth Comings comes out this August! Im excited!!!!#GS!) Fucking excellent books where I fell in love with the characters. Teen Fiction. bleh.
I like a boy I shouldnt like. His name is Taylor. He should have graduated in May of 2007, but he only had 8 out of 24 credits that he needed to pass, so he dropped out. Id always imagined him a life loser. But Ive been talking to him a lot and I like him. He isnt stupid either, he just hated school and never did the work. But Im moving this Thursday across the country, so I guess it doesnt really matter. It just sucks the we didnt get to know each other sooner. He was fucking one of my friends, (a skanky pothead, nothings wrong with pot, but she was a skanky one. tahha.) And I cant tell any of my friends, because they hate him.. well not hate him, but they think he is all wrong for me. Which again, it doesnt matter, I leave in two-three days. And I want to have sex with him, but I knowknowknowknowknowknow thats not a good idea. I hardly know him, but I like him. Ive decided Im not going to.
ANYWAYSZZ.
I got my hair done today. mmhmm.
I odnt have any good pictures of it.. but Ill post what Ive taken in the past couple of hours.
Imma miss my hairdresser. =[ I love her. Shes wonderful. She gave me her phone number and shit though.
before:
Taylor took that picture of me last night.
After:
I havent styled my hair myself right now, so its kind of bleh in those pictures.
Oh, and in the second after picture, you can kind of see the blonde I left. I dont care how "out" coontails are. I like them. So I got one. aight.
anyways
How many times have you changed your hair color? Whats your favorite color on you?
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[30 Jun 2007|09:51pm] |
Our auction was today. My house is now literally empty. I thought that it would look really wierd, and unrecognizable, but it isnt. I guess that weve been getting rid of shit slowly so it didnt all happen in a second.
We made 20,000 in the auction. hello new car. =p
Remember when I used to ask questions at the end of my post to get to know you guys? Well, Imma start that up again.
What is your favorite book? Whats it about? Describe the main character. Dont read books?
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| borderline personality disorder. |
[27 Jun 2007|07:38am] |
I often like to self diagnos myself. But this time I think Im right.
I think I have BPD.
(That I copied and pasted from wikipedia):
Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
Mmm . This sentance doesnt make much sense to me. I guess I dont like to be abandoned?
A pattern of unstable and intense interpersonal relationships characterized by alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation.
Why do they have to use confusing words?Fuck. I think its talking about how I "hate/love/hate/love" with the same people. Which I do very often.
Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self-damaging (e.g., spending, promiscuous sex, eating disorders, substance abuse, reckless driving, binge eating).
I dont know if I have an eating disorder. The thoughts crossed my mind, but I dont think I would diagnos myself with an ED. Substance abuse? Yes please.
Recurrent suicidal behavior, gestures, threats, or self-mutilating behavior.
I used to cut. I dont anymore. I didnt cut because I was emo either, thanks. Like.. its like you feel so relieved and refreshed once youve done it. Now when Im angry, I do something like shave my legs, because it takes focus and you cant think about other things when your shaving your legs. By the time my legs are smooth, so are my emotions.
Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood (e.g., intense episodic dysphoria, irritability, or anxiety usually lasting a few hours and only rarely more than a few days)
Ehh. Im pretttty bad with mood swings. And I get stressed and panic attacked easily.
Chronic feelings of emptiness.
Once again, IM NOT SEEKING ATTENTION BY POSTING THIS, GUYS. K? I just feel like telling anyone that I think I have BPD, they will think I just want attention, but you guys are on the internet and Ill never meet, so I can say whatever the fuck I want, right? But yes, I ofter feel "empty..."
Inappropriate, intense anger or difficulty controlling anger (e.g., frequent displays of temper, constant anger, recurrent physical fights).
Not really. I used to have a really bad problem at controlling my anger. But once again, I either shave my legs or I also like to write.
Transient, stress-related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms.
I hate confusing sentances. But I guess Im paranoid, and I dont have any friends, really. I have a problem with EVERYONE, and I odnt like anyone. Too judgemental?
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